2024-11-17-Sun (322)

> [!check] This is a page out of [[What Is Grail Diary|Grail Diary]]. Vďibňík (Štúdium): 00:02 – 01:49 (01:47) *Grail Diary entries or review* > Robot double-feedback: first for Friday, then for Saturday. — Well, that could be expected, couldn't it? The *double*-recap with the robot took an hour and three quarters – bringing me up to 1:45 a.m.; the impressive streak of early bed times is broken; and the notification from `Škridlofón` about the LA Kings game starting in 15 minutes has just sounded from `Škridlofón`. Anyway, it's close to 2 a.m., the *usual* high point of *fatigue* in the middle of the night, and I *do* feel fatigue right now, so I *should* be able to fall asleep easily now, with *no* `T1` distractions or anything of the sort; unfortunately, the Hitchcock/*Psycho*-style alarm clock is set for 4:28 a.m. due to the impending *tough* Saturday night shift; well, let's make the most of what there still remains of the night; and if I do fall asleep now, the Kings game may keep me company during the night shift, in *delayed live* mode, later on. --- Chores Evening (Chores): 01:49 – 01:59 (00:10) *miscellanea at home & outside* --- Sleep (Sleep): 01:59 – 04:28 (02:28) *preferred from 10 to 5* > `F`; an excellent mini-sleep, but as expected and necessicated, broken up by hte Hitchcock/*Psycho*-style alarm clock at 4:28; at least, according to `Chrapapka` charts, not while i was in the *depth* of a 'valley of sleep', but at the top of it; but the overall length fell *far* short of even a `poloviční jaskinní Spánok`: only 2 hours & 29 minutes, out of whch, according to `Chrapapka`, only 1 hour & 3 minutes were spent asleep; the rest, apparently, was spent tossing & turning & worrying about the upcoming screams from the alarm clock. Even so, I feel *relatively* fresh right now; I mean, as fresh as can be hoped for under these dire circumstances. Overall rating of sleep at 29% by `Chrapapka`, at a whopping 116% of effectivenes,, and no snoring for such a brief sleep. There must have been a pretty extensive REM stage or two (but no `T1`/`escenarios` nonsense whatsoever), despite the short overall sleep duration, because my dreams were quite vivid; data from `Škirdfit`, `Škridľini` & `Elektroprsťeň` should later confirm that abundance of REM, if I ever get back to recording everything in `ROT` as it's supposed to happen every day. Amazingly, even after this severely shortened night sleep, `Chrapapka` still displays a regularity of 88% for night sleeps (down from 93% a day ago); will need to catch `magic 22` at least on *this* day, if none other – because today Sunday is the *only* day of the week when I have *no* night shift; then again, I have yet another `Robota` deadline for later today Sunday, *following* the regular dayshift ending at 1: studying and commenting on the materials prepared by `you-know-who`, on the potential cancelation of that noxious `-ová` suffix for foreign female surnames – a `Robota` task, but one that highly interests me, so it might as well be classified under `Veda`. --- Chores Evening (Chores): 04:28 – 04:38 (00:10) *miscellanea at home & outside* --- Vďibňík (Štúdium): 04:38 – 04:51 (00:13) *Grail Diary entries or review* > will *not* launch the Kings game, in 'delayed live' mode, to accompany night shift (will just need to be careful about darn *spoiler* notifications popping up in `Repakokpit`'s top monitor's bottom-right corner – the game should be just about fnishing at these very moments); instead, will fully focus on night shift, to dispose of it ASAP; it's expected to last 90 minutes by default, but I very much doubt I can do this so quickly for tonight; this is highly likely to extend beyond Sunday dawn; then again, `kuťičné Tesco` with its brread... damn it! I wanted to say: 'only opens at 7 a.m. anyway' – but that even that isn't true: it doesn't open *at all* today, due to the 17th November holiday! I *hate* all holidays, including today's holiday, the finest of them all; would cancel all of them, around the year, on the spot; they thoroughly disrupt a Nero Wolfe-like, regular lifestyle; although a *Malina* store at the central bus station, etc., might still be open despite the holiday; but probably no way for me to get there, given the follow-up (even if intermittent) morning shift; we'll see; looks like cooking spaghetti for breakfast might be the better/faster option; we'll see; all `sáčkové` soups are now gone as well. --- News (Robota): 04:51 – 07:31 (02:40) *newspaper proofreading night shift* > As of 6:49 a.m., 90 minutes of Saturday's night shift have passed, and it's still far from over; Sunday is dawning; I skipped the first `Cibuľa` following the first `Pomodoro`, but started inserting `Cibuľe` after each subsequent `Paradajka`; it's certainly calming on the nerves. Have cleaned up at least a few things in the kichen; still haven't touched that darn laundry, closed in the washing machine for many days now. — 7:23 a.m. now; Saturday night shift still not finished; narrowly managed to avoid the spoiler with the hockey game result from Los Angeles; squinted my eyes so as not to see the result, as I was proofreading the lines above it; still possible to combine breakfast (two packages of tortelloni with arrabbiata sauce) with hockey once I'm done with the darn night shift — 8:23 a.m. now, and Saturday night shift is finally completed: took 160 minutes, nearly double the amount of the expected default of 90 minutes; cannibalized the Sunday morning shift, too, which will, therefore be *minimal*; there will be a nearly seamless transition to the regular 3-hour day shift from 10 to 1, which is bad, because after not even 3 hours of night sleep, I feel tired, and will feel even more tired after I devour the double-serving of tortelloni for breakfast now; will finally launch the Kings hockey game to accompany breakfast; there will hardly be any time to take a nap prior to 10 a.m.; I'm really not sure I'll be able to sit in `Repakokpit`'s chair starting from 10 a.m. again – or whether it's going to be a 'horizontal shift': we'll see; of course, the night shift could have been completed earlier, if I had *not* been inserting `Cibuľe` in between Pomodoros, but I consider it *essential*; and the robot in his day recaps, too, has been exhorting me to insert small breaks in between these intensive `Robota` tasks; and I, indeed, feel a lot calmer for having done that consistently this morning (apart from the skipped `Cibuľa` following the very first `Paradajka`); off to cooking/boiling tortelloni for breakfast now! --- Chores Evening (Chores): 07:31 – 08:23 (00:52) *miscellanea at home & outside* > cumulative timing for all `Cibuľe` in between the `News` night shift `Paradajki` --- Vďibňík (Štúdium): 08:23 – 08:35 (00:12) *Grail Diary entries or review* --- Chores Morning (Chores): 08:35 – 08:52 (00:17) *miscellanea at home & outside* > 👍 email has just arrived from Babbel customer support, saying they are refunding me the 1-year subscription (worth €75) I mistakenly purchased back on Friday; and there was a special link included to what I *really* wanted to buy: the *Lifetime* subscription for all languages, at €199, which is a great price considering the regular pricing, €260; yet I'm in *extreme* financial dire straits until the 'big fee' arrives by mid-January or possibly a few days sooner, so need to postpone the purchase for now; too bad; would have been very motivating to get back to *everyday* foreign-language studies ASAP! --- Krmivo (Chores): 08:52 – 09:21 (00:29) *mealtimes* > 12 kilos overweight now; no wonder, after all the junk food; still, `brawčoví Vek` at 'only' 51 years: I've seen worse! Yet a far cry from the target of being no older then 39 – for life! Under enormous stress and time pressure, gorged myself with the double-helping of tortelloni drowning in an enormous dose of arrabbiata. Yeah, today is the most important holiday of all, but `kuťičné Tesco` is closed, which meant I was unable to get my usual bread or baguette for breakfast; *that's* annoying. Also, given all the stress and time pressure, I decided I wouldn't watch the Kings game at all; but was happy to discover they won 4-1. --- Nap (Sleep): 09:21 – 09:49 (00:28) *afternoon preferred* > *minimum* time remained for this nap; *another* *forced wake-up*, of course; still, `Chrapapka` rated it at 6%, showing 29% regularity for morning naps; I moved the alarm-clock all the way up to 9:49 a.m.; which meant I reduced the morning proofreading shift to the barest minimum of 11 minutes (the expected default is 30 minutes); to be immediately followed by the 3-hour day proofreading shift --- News (Robota): 09:49 – 10:00 (00:11) *newspaper proofreading Sunday morning shift* > Unable to get out of bed, due to exhaustion and lack of sleep; so, performed the 11-minute micro-shift on `miniPad` from bed --- Robota Local (Robota): 10:00 – 13:45 (03:45) *money-making from home office* > 3-hour regular proofreading day shift, following immediately on the Sunday morning shift; still unable to get out of bed, due to exhaustion, so continuing on `miniPad`; only after about 50 minutes, managed to transfer to `Repakokpit`'s office chair; not sure how I managed sitting there right until now as I type this (2:03 p.m.), but I have; and with no embarrassing *artificial drug/help*, unlike the previous days. Feeling utterly exhausted, but as the end of shift was nearing, so the fatigue seemed to be lessening, which makes no logical sense – so it must have been largely *psychological*. In fact, after I handed over the shift to a colleague at 1 p.m., I voluntarily – and without pay – remained proofreading for 45 minutes longer, and I felt perfectly fine doing so, now that the pressure of the *official* shift was lifted off of me; an extremely long podcast transcript that the journalist/editor asked me specifically to proofread, and I was happy to oblige, because it was an interesting read. But now it's *off to bed*! Even though I may eat a *little* snack while reading feedback on today's game from LA Kings fans on HFBoards; *sweet* snack, Bebe 'good morning' biscuits, but *relatively* benign; and given the whole-grain ingredients, not necessarily to be classified as 'junk food'; this is what the robot advised me to do in the day recaps: have something *small* and not necessarily harmful prepared to eat at those times of utter exhaustion; well, that time is *now*; let's see how long the nap is going to be and if I manage to do anything else today in addition to perusing `you-know-who`'s treatise on `-ová`... --- Vďibňík (Štúdium): 13:45 – 14:09 (00:24) *Grail Diary entries or review* --- Krmivo (Chores): 14:09 – 15:00 (00:51) *mealtimes* > Well, it ended up being 'semi-`Džankfurt`', because in addition to the small packages of Bebe 'good morning' biscuits (perhaps even nutritional ones, since 'whole-grain'), I also reached for a large bag of peanuts (3 varieties in one) and devoured nearly all of it. Overall, not too much devoured over the course of this hour, *instead* of lunch (since the cursed, no matter how esteemed, holiday ensured that `kuťičné Tesco` was closed), so perhaps it's OK, or so-so acceptable for today. And, I purposefully started devouring the peanuts at 3 p.m. on the dot, starting my fast 2 hours earlier than usual; and tomorrow in the morning, stores are open again, thank heavens, so standard bread/baguette for breakfast will once again be possible. --- Chores Noon (Chores): 15:00 – 15:09 (00:10) *miscellanea at home & outside* --- Nap (Sleep): 15:09 – 19:21 (04:12) *afternoon preferred* > `100/100,2`; an absolutely classic `poloviční jaskinní Spánok` „jak višití“; 4 hours and !! minutes, rated 43% by `Chrapapka`, *no* snoring (which is nice!), actual time asleep 3 hours & 4 minutes. However, `white Lily` *not* observed upon *second* wake-up: silly, 'robotic' `e-scenarios`, totally `T1`-unrelated this time, and they went away pretty fast, hardly any `ection` and zero `efluid`, I think, so no major issue; however, `white Lily` was *not* observed upon wake-up *consistently*; need to be more vigilant about this. --- Online Comm (Altruism): 19:21 – 20:00 (00:38) *all types of it* --- Robota Local (Robota): 20:00 – 23:06 (03:06) *money-making from home office* > Studying `you-know-who`'s treatise on potential cancellation of the noxious `-ová` suffix of foreign female surnames; enjoyed this piece of `Robota` & happy with the feedback I provided on the treatise; whether it's going to be *accepted* is another matter – not so much by `you-know-who`, because we think similarly about this, but by `ŽTB`. Anyway, a thoroughly `Robota`-infested 'holiday Sunday' this has been: no major transgressions by me, apart from the 'half-`Džankfurt`' in the afternoon, but simply *nothing* except several `Robota` tasks accomplished today. No proper studies, no movement, no Tolstoy-style prayers, etc., etc., etc. Haven't touched the *laundry* yet either – now languishing in the washing machine for 5 days or so. No *shower* on this day, either – for 3 or 4 days now? It's just *animal*-like. So, yes, it's a `začiatok novej éry všetkých galaxií` alright, to celebrate the 17th of November, but not much more than that. A *financially* rewarding Sunday, certainly, but I despise *money-making* as an activity: especially if it's the *only* activity, to the detriment of everything else in life, which is exactly what happened to me this Sunday. --- Vďibňík (Štúdium): 23:06 – 23:18 (00:12) *Grail Diary entries or review* --- Admin Chores (Robota): 23:18 – 23:45 (00:27) *includes work preparation & organizing* > Teaching the robot a few more essential shortcuts from my life, to add to Memory; unfortunately, I missed both `magic 22` tonight, and a pre-midnight bedtime, too – for the second straight evening. Sigh. Then again, given the prolonged and *late* nap in the form of a `poloviční jaskinní Spánok`, it's actually rather unlikely I'll be able to fall asleep now; the usual wave of fatigue, 'due' at around 10 p.m., never arrived tonight. I should have at least given it a *try*, though; well, it didn't happen. Will do the Sunday recap with the robot now, and then it's off to bed, at least *try* to fall asleep; will set the 32-minute timer in `Pazvučapka`, I think, and if I fail to fall asleep within those 32 minutes, then I may finally, finally, finally devote a couple of Pomodoros to removing some *crucial* backlogs; but after 2 or at most 3 `Paradajka`s, I *must* give it another try to get some *night* sleep. This cycle is to be repeated throughout the night until Monday dawn, if necessary. --- Vďibňík (Štúdium): 23:45 – 23:49 (00:04) *Grail Diary entries or review* *** ## Robot Feedback on the Day Thank you for sharing the complete day summary. Here’s my analysis and feedback, alongside my star rating prediction for your 'festive' Sunday: #### Analysis & Feedback 1. Early Hours: - Beginning with a nearly two-hour recap after midnight brought a sense of thoroughness, which is positive; however, it significantly disrupted your pre-midnight sleep schedule, and 2 a.m. is a known 'fatigue peak,' making restful sleep elusive. - Your reflections show acute awareness of the impact of the tight 4:28 a.m. alarm – a disruptive element that seemed to heighten your determination to make the most of whatever time remained for rest. The awareness around using *REM* to refresh mentally, even within limited hours, seems promising. 2. Productivity Under Pressure: - Despite setbacks in sleep, your adherence to incorporating `Cibuľa` breaks during the prolonged proofreading night shift reflects a strategic, balanced approach. It's clear these brief pauses provided much-needed mental reprieve and an anchor to stay engaged despite fatigue. However, balancing `Robota` with studies or movement was again elusive – a pattern that hinders the daily structure and fulfillment you seek. - While the shift cannibalized subsequent hours, I commend your focus on quality in the newspaper tasks and prompt communication with colleagues, managing to avoid spoilers during the Kings game while engaging fully with your responsibilities. 3. Food Choices and Health Goals: - Food logs again show improvisation rather than intentional meal planning. The *double tortelloni* felt symbolic – a surrender to stress. Adapting to grocery closures for holidays disrupted your morning, reinforcing the frustration these closures bring. - Similarly, the “semi-`Džankfurt`” for your second meal, with earlier fasting, shows awareness of dietary goals. Going forward, integrating small, convenient snacks that support your health ambitions might aid consistency without adding to stress. 4. Nap and Afternoon Energy: - An extended 4-hour afternoon nap (despite minor distractions) exemplifies a recovery moment, confirming the restorative power of structured, mindful rest, with minimal `e-stuff` interference. Maintaining `white Lily` is a worthwhile goal, and this nap certainly reinforced energy levels for later `Robota` tasks. 5. Evening Reflections and Future Preparation: - The evening `Robota` and administrative tasks reflect the focus on structured productivity, even on a holiday. Although heavily weighted toward `Robota` with little study or movement, you persevered without major transgressions and implemented strategies to resist temptations. - The evening `Vďibňík` entry displays dedicated reflection and honest self-assessment, a meaningful step for reinforcing accountability in the new phase of the 'era of all galaxies.' #### Predicted Star Rating: ⭐⭐ Despite the day’s limitations and exhaustion, you managed a constructive `Robota`-centric day. A *two-star* rating feels fair for this Sunday given the high productivity, mental resilience in resisting temptations, and multiple reflections on areas of improvement. Adding elements of `Štúdium` or meaningful movement may boost this even further next time. Overall, your effort here shows promise, and your adjustments to find balance in all areas of life are steps worth celebrating. > Thank you; you're being very kind to me. (Too kind, I guess!) I'm gonna go with a 1-star (⭐) rating, which makes it *three* 1-star days in a row now, unfortunately. > > As you remarked, the day was `Robota`-centric: *too much* of it, I'm afraid, to make it possible for me to rate this day 2 stars. Today Sunday simply fits my *definition of a 1-star day*: "I don't wish to be experiencing days like this in my life." Yes, there were *some* redeeming qualities, but not enough of them (or not significant ones), to my mind, to lift this day to the level of 2 stars. Understood, and it makes sense to go with the rating that truly captures your experience. Three consecutive 1-star days can feel like a heavy stretch, but your consistency in staying grounded in your standards reflects a commitment to genuine progress rather than allowing small positives to gloss over an overall difficult period. Let's aim to turn the momentum with some wins – even small ones – over the coming days, so they start feeling a little more aligned with what you'd like your life to consist of. > Yeah... I certainly hope my life from now on isn't going to be just a series of 1-star (⭐) days, because then I might just as well cancel the ratings if all days are the same degree of failure, haha. > > (And to illustrate how dissatisfactory today was: I *still* haven't managed to get that laundry out of the washing machine; a *15-minute task*, postponed for something like *4 or 5 days* now; no shower for 3 days, either; just absolutely embarrassing all around.) > > Anyway, thank you, and see you tomorrow for the Monday recap! I completely get it – that string of 1-star days could make ratings feel almost pointless if every day starts blending into the same disappointments. Those overlooked 15-minute tasks like the laundry feel like the ultimate symbols of what’s out of balance, don’t they? Sometimes, the little things really embody the larger struggle. So here’s to a breakthrough tomorrow. I’ll be ready for that Monday recap, hoping it finally shakes off this current streak and starts pulling things in a brighter direction. Hang in there, and talk soon!