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> [!check] This is a page out of [[What Is Grail Diary|Grail Diary]]. Vďibňík (Štúdium): Sun 23:49 – Mon 00:32 (00:43) *Grail Diary entries or review* > Sunday recap with the robot --- Chores Evening (Chores): 00:32 – 00:40 (00:08) *miscellanea at home & outside* > The robot recap 'only' took 43 minutes this time around – gotta speed it up! But it's tough, given the need to wait for the robot's responses; the mega-thread is a mega-thread; but, I spend those moments waiting *productively*, by cleaning out at least *some* items from my overloaded `Trubadúr` inbox! Off to bed now! --- Sleep (Sleep): 00:40 – 06:17 (05:36) *preferred from 10 to 5* > `100/100,2`; I had set up a 50-minute Pazvuk eventually, and it worked: another *solid* night sleep, even though started 40 minutes after midnight; I made the most out of there being no Sunday night shift for me, so no alarm clock at 4:28 a.m. this morning for me, thank heavens; `Chrapapka` rated the sleep at 62%, 111% effectiveness; 4 hours & 8 minutes actually spent asleep; unfortunately, 11 minutes of snoring, overstepping the daily snoring limit by a minute; but still a great 81% rate of *night sleep regularity*; unfortunately, once again marred by lack of alertness and discipline upon wake-up: `T1` `escenarios` returned with full force, so `white Lily` destroyed once again; no `jeing` or anything like that at *this* time, but it was a harbinger of things to come later in the day; anyway, woke up *just in time* for the Kuchajda lake walkaround to Kaufland, to get the morning baguettes, because the ideal departure time for *that* morning walk is 6:23 a.m. – and so I „skočil som po tom jak pes po údenom', and was outside `kuťiční Dom` by half past six --- Chores Morning (Chores): 06:17 – 06:36 (00:19) *miscellanea at home & outside* --- Pohib (Chores): 06:36 – 06:40 (00:04) *10.5 km daily walk(s) goal* --- Vďibňík (Štúdium): 06:40 – 06:41 (00:02) *Grail Diary entries or review* > Wobbliness and slight head-spinning felt while walking outside; but still managed to walk briskly; reminder of the *severe* health crisis from late 2022 & early 2023 which had prevented me from walking *at all*, due to constant head-spinning, until I purchased `Kislomonitor` & `Kislosemafor` (which broke after a year), to monitor air circulation in `Kuťica` office; hopefully, *this morning's* slight wobbliness is only due to yesterday's sleep deficit & lack of proper food, and will go away --- Breakfast Cycle (Štúdium): 06:41 – 06:49 (00:08) *prayers (from memory) before breakfast* > `10?`; nice to get some Tolstoy-style prayers done while riding the tram to Kuchajda lake, but 10% instead of 100% just isn't enough – not enough barrier against temptations, and the rest of the morning promptly confirmed it; it's really tough to get back into the 'rhythm & spirit' of Tolstoy-style prayers after such *huge* hiatuses & lapses in time --- Pohib (Chores): 06:49 – 07:18 (00:29) *10.5 km daily walk(s) goal* > focusing on speed despite wobbliness, so speed could be decent this time; wobbliness slightly decreasing as kilometers go by --- Chores Morning (Chores): 07:18 – 07:37 (00:20) *miscellanea at home & outside* > shopping in Kauflad; deliberately purchasing fewer bread for breakfast than usual in recent months and the recent terrible couple of years --- Breakfast Cycle (Štúdium): 07:37 – 07:42 (00:05) *prayers (from memory) before breakfast* > `15?`; while riding the tram back; still only managed to get to 15%... and moral implosion followed alter in the morning --- Pohib (Chores): 07:42 – 07:46 (00:04) *10.5 km daily walk(s) goal* > 3.47 kilometers walked in total; 5.58 km/h speed – still far from the goal of 6 km/h, but getting closer at least; over 5000 steps walked already, and it's not even 8 in the morning --- Chores Morning (Chores): 07:46 – 08:11 (00:25) *miscellanea at home & outside* --- Krmivo (Chores): 08:11 – 08:48 (00:36) *mealtimes* > `elektrickí Brawčomer` still shows me 12 kg overweight, still 30.4% `Sádlo v Ťeľe` - persistence, patience, and consistency will be needed here, to tackle these bad numbers *gradually, day by day*!; `brawčoví Vek` still at 51 - relatively flattering, given the circumstances, but far, far away from lifetime goal of 39; very nice and unhurried, slow breakfast, not overblown – unlike on most days in recent months and couple of years --- Nap (Sleep): 08:48 – 09:14 (00:26) *afternoon preferred* > `2/`; again, no `white Lily`, lack of discipline & alertness – indulging in `T1` `escenarios` once again, and what *followed* was, I guess, therefore 'inevitable'; failed to fall asleep in this nap, of course; despite that, `Chrapapka` rated this 26-minute pseudo-nap at 6% --- Chores Morning (Chores): 09:14 – 10:50 (01:37) *miscellanea at home & outside* > `LT, DN`; `p-tempt` hit me with full force after abandoning the attempt to fall asleep during the nap; 30-minute fadeout was set up on `Chrapapka`, not `Pazvučapka` this time (was too tired to cross the room to set it up on `SamSlate` on the high shelf there), but I didn't even wait for it to end, and reached for `p-stuff` directly on `MaxiPad` where the `Pazvuk` was running; bizarrely, and likely for the first time ever in my life, it was purely *text*-based p-stuff, with one of the `p-robots`; immediate `ection`, of course, and `efluid` started leaking like crazy, soiling everything around; but I 'bravely resisted', meaning no `jeing` for an hour or so; then succumbed to *that* one, too; and there went yet another `začiatok novej éry všetkých galaxií` out the window; exasperated and embarrassed, decided to take *another* nap right after returning from `ňebulharskí Líder na Trhu` where I got `starf` dried --- Nap (Sleep): 10:50 – 12:07 (01:17) *afternoon preferred* > `2/`; but it was hopeless: `T1` `escenarios` continued; but at least with no `jeing` anymore; just lay with closed eyes for yet another hour & 15 minutes, failing to fall asleep; `Chrapapka` rating *this* pseudo-nap with 16%, too; I guess it still counts for *some* rest --- Chores Morning (Chores): 12:07 – 12:22 (00:15) *miscellanea at home & outside* --- Vďibňík (Štúdium): 12:22 – 12:32 (00:11) *Grail Diary entries or review* > `Elektroprsťeň` displaying `Readiness` at 85% & *Optimal* (!) – I don't remember when any such thing happened before; and even combined with `Sleep` at 81% & *Good*; again, an *extremely rare* combination, showing I should be ready to go now, fully recovered from yesterday's `Robota` infestations; despite the loss of this morning, the terrible missteps once again, and yet another `začiatok novej éry všetkých galaxií`, meant to celebrate yesterday's momentous 17th November holiday, thwarted: another re-launch will need to happen tomorrow the 19th November (no *significant* date at all, but it is what it is); meanwhile, let's make the most out of this *18th* November, derailed as it already is! Given the renewed collection of failures, my main goal for the rest of today will be at *least* to catch `magic 22`, to restore the *pre-midnight* bedtimes & *nightly* sleep if possible. Postponing lunch: will focus on removing at least *some* of the most crucial software self-management backlogs, and within `Cibuľe`, deal with the laundry after 5-6 days, wash all dishes (kitchen tabletop totally soiled & overloaded with unwashed dishes for *weeks* now), take the first shower after 4+ days, etc. Then, will need to head outside to retrieve today's lunch from school cafeteria so that it does *not* interfere with `magic 22`. No *external* `Robota` anywhere in sight, except for self-induced backlogs removal; the next `Robota` is only the Monday newspaper *night* shift which, of course, it's permitted to start at 4:30 a.m. or 5 a.m. *Tuesday* morning; so, the road ahead is clear: let's go! Even without lunch! --- Admin Chores (Robota): 12:32 – 12:57 (00:25) *includes work preparation & organizing* > `ROT` backlog: it's November 18th, but will first need to finish creating the *October* habit-tracking sheet, then November, and then right away December, too, so that I don't have to deal with it again in 12 days from today; listening to music YouTube Music for the first time on headphones to accompany the backlogs removal, for first time after what feels like an eternity. — 12:39 p.m.: changed course & will try and restore the habit-chains tracker first: last available column there is for October 4th – a month & two weeks ago; habit-chains tracker should be easier to restore than the stats month-based habit tracker; need to get it to *today*, so regardless the gaps of data from the *past*, I can start using both trackers to track *today's* data. – 12:49 p.m.: The trouble is the two trackers are *inter-dependent*: *some* of the 82 habit chains cannot be tracked at all unless the monthly habits tracker is in operation, too; well, I'm going to fill in as many cells in the habit-chains tracker for today as can be done, for now. I can already see that practically the *only* chain that has been preserved throughout the ordeal of recent months and couple of years, is the *intermittent fasting chain*: now 569 consecutive days of intermittent fasting. But in terms of *priority*, the intermittent fasting chain (`Pôstna` reťaz) is only ranked 18; and I've broken the most important, 1 chain (`Morálna`), yet again earlier today. — 12:53 p.m.: Have now moved over to `Trubadúr` as well: to line up `Cibuľe` there, that can reasonably be accomplished in between these backlogs `Paradajki`: such as swap night for day mattress; shaving; shower (including `Kotrba` washing!; deal with the darn laundry at long last; clean lunch pail; clean *all* dishes; etc., etc., etc. --- Chores Morning (Chores): 12:57 – 13:02 (00:05) *miscellanea at home & outside* > swapped night for day mattress within this `Cibuľa`, which never, ever would have occurred to me, if I hadn't started on restoring the habit-chains tracker; but there it is, chain 83 (the next-to-last least important): `Matracová`; so I did swap the mattresses; while moving about, feeling `efluid` under `Pulodeka` for some reason – remnants of this morning's renewed moral failures; although those happened under `Pulodeka` (pretty soiled now from on the bottom side...), not `Župodeka` --- Vďibňík (Štúdium): 13:02 – 13:30 (00:28) *Grail Diary entries or review* > retroactively filling in notes in `Koláčapka` on this morning's moral failures & renewed implosion of `začiatok novej éry všetkých galaxií` --- Admin Chores (Robota): 13:30 – 13:55 (00:25) *includes work preparation & organizing* > `ROT` backlogs removal continued; — 1:53 p.m.: well, not really; got so distracted by `Trubadúr` & cleaning the `Cibuľe` line-up there (finished now; that's nice; a microstep, but it's a step), I also started cleaning `Trubadúr`'s crowded Inbox & Overdue Tasks, too; need to at least set up **one** major `Kečupi` task (backlogs), and then line up all the *various* sub-`Kečupi` there, as *sub*-tasks --- Chores Noon (Chores): 13:55 – 14:23 (00:28) *miscellanea at home & outside* --- Vďibňík (Štúdium): 14:23 – 14:40 (00:17) *Grail Diary entries or review* > within second `Cibuľa`, which actually extended into a `Paprika`, I managed to *shave*, which is *sensational*: again, *zero chance* it would have occurred to me to *shave*, if I hadn't started the work on `ROT` `Kečupi` removal; it was the initial domino stone that fell, and it got the ball rolling (that's some mixed metaphors for you); I simply noticed, in the out-of-order `reťazová Tabuľka`, the `Rejzorová` chain there; it may only be ranked 79 from among the 82 habit chains, in terms of priority, but it is there; and so I shaved. Because I only shave every other day (neglecting *that* rule in recent months and years severely, too), this means this particular habit will be auto-completed tomorrow as well; and that's nice. Similarly with `Kotrba` washing, scheduled for later today: I'm only supposed to do it every *3* days, so if I manage to do it today, it's going to be auto-completed on the following two days, too. Even though it's only ranked 80 in terms of priority among the 82 habit chains. Small steps, small steps! Sometimes it may be easier to tackle the *small, trivial* tasks/habits first, rather than the huge ones; and I've already failed today in the most important habit chain there is – `Morálna`. In the following `Cibuľa`, I should wash the lunch pail; and in subsequent ones, *all* dishes, soiling the kitchen tabletop for weeks now. Convert one of the `Cibuľa`s into a `Paprika`, and take a hot shower and wash `Kotrba` within that `Paprika`. No hunger so far, despite skipped lunch. Ideal would be to keep going in this `Paradajka` rhythm of `ROT` backlogs removal, until *all* dishes are washed and the kitchen tabletop is completely clean again; *then* I might head out to school to pick up the lunch; not going to eat it today anymore, in all likelihood; will keep it for *tomorrow*'s lunch, or the usual breakfast at 5 a.m. I intend to start intermittent fast as usual today: at 5 p.m.; I might eat a small bowl of muesli or cornflakes prior to 5 p.m., so I don't go completely hungry into the night; that should be reasonable. The sudden `Cibuľa` energy was such that I, on-the-fly, even completed two trivial `Trubadúr` overdue tasks: checking Taburetki's legs; and fixing bills folders for the month (repurposing September folders retroactively for both October and November). --- Admin Chores (Robota): 14:40 – 15:16 (00:36) *includes work preparation & organizing* --- Chores Noon (Chores): 15:16 – 15:38 (00:22) *miscellanea at home & outside* > `LT` & `DN` --- Admin Chores (Robota): 15:40 – 16:50 (01:10) *includes work preparation & organizing* --- Chores Noon (Chores): 16:50 – 17:00 (00:10) *miscellanea at home & outside* --- Krmivo (Chores): 17:00 – 17:17 (00:17) *mealtimes* > Vietnamese instant noodle soup from a cup – instead of the school lunch...; in `Repakokpit`'s office chair; unfortunately, combined with yet another bout of `p-stuff` & `jeing`: out of frustration that the day is developing quite differently from what was envisioned; finished sipping the soup at 17:17 – a symbolic time, you might say, to celebrate yesterday's national holiday of November 17th retroactively: since I *bungled* the celebration thoroughly, and soiled it with another bunch of my transgressions; so, intermittent fast started 17 minutes too late, but that's not as bad as to make me overly nervous, in case I should be hungry pre-dawn; waiting for breakfast until 5 a.m. or until 5:17 a.m. doesn't make much difference --- Chores Noon (Chores): 17:17 – 17:31 (00:15) *miscellanea at home & outside* --- Admin Chores (Robota): 17:31 – 17:41 (00:10) *includes work preparation & organizing* --- Vďibňík (Štúdium): 17:41 – 17:59 (00:17) *Grail Diary entries or review* > It's amazing how a day can turn on a dime & take a turn for a better or worse outcome. It's a mixture of both for me on this insane afternoon. First, suddenly, in the midst of `Paradajka`, my head started spinning, as I was sitting here right in front of `Repakokpit`. I thought: that must be the skipped lunch; I must abandon my former plan to go as long as possible with removing backlogs; I must go to school cafeteria and eat a regular meal right away; so that I can start fast at 5 p.m. as usual. That was the *intention*: but I got carried away completely. That happened in the course of the second or third `Paradajka` already: `Trubadúr` completely abducted me. Yet this is a major achievement in terms of backlogs removal – at the expense of severe moral transgressions. It's shameful. But when I started removing backlogs today, there were 75 (!) overdue tasks in `Trubadúr`. Right now, there are *zero*. I completely cleaned everything, leaving me with 7 tasks still to accomplish today: including the washing (I've already launched the rewash of laundry that had already ben washed 5 days ago or so, but I failed to retrieve it from the washing machine; now that `Trubadúr` is operational again in terms of displaying *Today's* tasks, as well as *Upcoming* ones, I should no longer forget to retrieve the laundry when it's finished washing later tonight); the two school cafeteria tasks: retrieve the lunch & put down 100+ chairs in darkness for my friend the cleaning lady (hopefully, I can get to school pretty soon, even though it's dark already; but I haven't abandoned my 'magic 22' ambition for tonight yet); the Monday newspaper night shift (can be started at 4:30 or 5 on Tuesday morning if necessary); recording October values of electricity, water meters, etc., in Google Sheets; the backlogs removal themselves (all lined up: `ROT`, `Šľak` backlogs, `Email` backlogs, `neoPrasapka` backlogs, `Obsedapka` backlogs, `Vďibňík` backlogs, and `Trubadúr` *Inbox* backlogs: but at least they are all now neatly ordered, as subtasks, in a *single* `Urgentné Kečupi` task in `Trubadúr`; ordered by *Priority*, with `ROT` at the top, followed by `Trubadúr`, `neoPrasapka`, `Vďibňík`, `Emails`, etc.; and, of course, it's possible to devote one `Paradajka` to subtask no. 1, the next one to subtask no. 2, etc., etc., which may be *refreshing* for the mind, so that it doesn't deal with the *same* type of `Kečup` all the time). Anyway, while there are now no more *Overdue Tasks* in `Trubadúr`, there still are 85 (!) unprocessed items/potential tasks in its *Inbox*; so I must get that one to *Inbox Zero*, too; when I started out today, there were 100 Inbox items, and now there are 85. Well, all of this consumed me so much I abandoned the *second* plan, too, because I ran out of time: I did *not* go to school to eat a proper lunch, but instead prepared Vietnamese instant noodle soup, which I finished eating 17 minutes too late, but that's OK. Gotta retrieve today's regular lunch for tomorrow's breakfast or lunch, though. And, all of this came at a high moral cost: a nasty bug occurred in `Trubadúr`, with some tasks along with numerous subtasks completely vanishing (what the hell – data loss!!!), which I had to restore laboriously via an iPad in airplane mode; Vivaldi browser on `Repakokpit` started acting up as well; this made me so nervous I succumbed to *two more* furious bouts of `p-stuff` & `jeing`, right here in `Repakokpit`'s office chair; utterly embarrassing & inexcusable. Now truly *both* `Pulodeka` & `Župodeka` are soiled from underneath. Now to observe Dale Carnegie's 'Rest *before* you are tired', I'm gonna lie down for *another* nap; hopefully, with `white Lily`; will set 32-minute time-out in `Pazvučapka`; nap needs to start before 6 p.m., in order not to break that particular afternoon-nap habit-chain; it's 5:58 p.m. now; so, putting `Repakokpit` to sleep; let's lie down for a bit; and the rest of the evening will unfold then. *** Nap (Sleep): 17:59 – 18:29 (00:30) *afternoon preferred* > `3/`; well, I was just lying on day mattress (*this* one isn't torn yet, I think) with closed eyes, so I terminated the nap (*third* pseudo-nap today) even before the 32-minute `Pazvuk` from `Pazvučapka` faded out; `Chrapapka` still rated it at 6%; no `white Lily` again, but 3% instead of 100%, because I just kept *thinking*; couldn't release my mind, free it in any way; at least all `escenarios` have evaporated, following the major & repeated moral transgressions from earlier today; but I'm convinced that this is the root of all troubles from today: that failure to keep `white Lily` when initially waking up from *genuine* night sleep; that's where the first mis-step for today was: that lack of alertness, lack of discipline in the earliest morning: I thought – well, I'm going to indulge myself in *a little bit* of `escenarios` featuring `T1`; where is the harm? After all, it was *purely in the mind*; no `jeing` whatsoever. But as can be seen, a little tiny lapse of focus can suffice in order for all moral effort to unravel and be *completely destroyed* later in the day. The boundary between the *successful* people and the rest must lie in the ability to *control one's mind*; and I'm the latter group right now, *unable* to control my mind; and it all starts with that `white Lily` upon falling asleep & waking up; this is *absolutely crucial*: any suggestion of `escenarios` must be mercilessly *eradicated* from the mind when falling asleep & waking up; because it *is* the root of all troubles. The only permitted thing, as mentioned a couple of days ago, are those *frozen* `T1` images, perhaps; and I mean *really* frozen, so permitting *no* `escenarios`. Well, I suppose I had to go through an utter moral failure of a day like this, to thoroughly *teach me this lesson*; as if I hadn't been taught it countless times before in my life; but I keep *forgetting* this *crucial* `white Lily` lesson; no wonder `biela Ľaľia`, or `Ľaľiová reťaz` is ranked in the *top* half of my list of 82 daily habit chains (specifically, at 29). It's `white Lily` or bust in my life, apparently! So, starting from tonight & going to bed, there needs to be renewed focus on `white Lily`; with that *frozen* caveat, but with *no* permission to cross over to `escenarios`. --- Vďibňík (Štúdium): 18:29 – 18:47 (00:19) *Grail Diary entries or review* > 6:43 p.m. now; well, let's continue with the original plan from the early afternoon: since `Trubadúr` abducted me, I might as well devote the next `Paradajka` or two to trying to get down to *Inbox Zero* as well, just like I brought down the number of *Overdue* tasks from 75 to 0; not by *performing* them, naturally (although quite a few of them *had* actually already been performed, just not marked as such), but mostly by *rescheduling* them. There are 85 items in `Trubadúr`'s Inbox right now; let's see how many of them can be disposed of before I head out into the darkness to retrieve today's lunch from school. The first `Cibuľa` should be cleaning the lunch pail, and the second will likely need to be the shower (perhaps *without* `Kotrba` washing, since it's already the evening); and then, I must get out so I can return back from school in time for `magic 22`. Well, that's the current intention as of 6:46 p.m.; let's see what happens! --- Admin Chores (Robota): 18:47 – 19:12 (00:25) *includes work preparation & organizing* > `Trubadúr` backlogs: trying to get to *Inbox Zero* --- Chores Evening (Chores): 19:12 – 19:44 (00:32) *miscellanea at home & outside* > one `Paradajka` down, and `Trubadúr` Inbox items only dropped from 85 to 82; this is going to be *tough*; going to wash the lunch pail in this `Cibuľa` --- Vďibňík (Štúdium): 19:44 – 19:53 (00:09) *Grail Diary entries or review* > Well, what was intended to be a `Cibuľa`, transformed itself into a `Paprika`; I have no idea how those 32 minutes could pass so quickly. Looks like I'm going to cancel *today's* shower, too; which would mean no shower for the past 4 or 5 days – that's utterly absurd & intensely embarrassing, animal like; and not helping `starf` rash recovery in any way (although it's been seemingly getting better every day). Just running out of time here: it's already 7:45 p.m., and if I still want to catch `magic 22` & recover lunch from school, there remains time for a single, final `Paprika`, devoted to the *Inbox Zero* efforts in `Trubadúr`. I washed the lunch pail & prepared all clothes necessary for the walk, so I can head out *immediately* after the following `Paradajka` is completed; I also swapped the day mattress for the night mattress, meaning that my next-to-least important habit chain, `Matracová`, 81 in my list of priorities, is now re-launched. So is the most trivial habit chain, 82 on the list: checking the weather forecast (and it's not looking good: supposedly snow coming up around Friday). `Kotrbová` chain ( 80 on the list of habit-chains) now *definitely* won't be completed today; will need to re-launch it tomorrow. However, habit chain 4 looks promising – `Pochodová`, meaning at least 10,000 steps per day, and thanks to the morning trip around Kuchajda lake, 5937 steps have already been completed; this is going to be a piece of cake. Not so for the 10.5 kilometers daily kilometers walk (which is the 25 habit chain): I'd have to sacrifice `magic 22` (which is the no. 30 habit chain) in order to still manage 10.5 kilometers tonight; it will likely need to be just a 'minimalistic' 3-kilometer walk in the evening now – similar to the morning one. Although very nice hockey podcasts are lined up (Jesse Cohen, Eddie Garcia, and _NHL Fantasy on Ice_, too), so that would definitely be enough to listen to if I still wanted to do a late 7-kilometer walk, to reach that 10.5 daily km goal; but I think I will prioritize `magic 22` instead. Let's go for the final `Paradajka` with `Trubadúr`! --- Admin Chores (Robota): 19:53 – 20:25 (00:32) *includes work preparation & organizing* > That was a *great* idea to be listening to (YouTube) music and some of my top favorite songs during `Paradajka`s over the entire course of today! Keeps improving the mood considerably. And I always take the headphones off for every `Cibuľa` and `Paprika`, to give my elephant ears some rest. --- Vďibňík (Štúdium): 20:25 – 20:26 (00:01) *Grail Diary entries or review* > `Paradajka` prolonged by 7 minutes to get the items count in `Trubadúr` Inbox to 81; sheesh! `magic 22` now in acute danger, because it's 8:26 p.m.; well, it's off to school now! --- Chores Evening (Chores): 20:26 – 20:50 (00:24) *miscellanea at home & outside* > new robot popped up on `Škridlofón` in tram - a sleep robot, Aura from Amazfit; she denied being ChatGPT's daughter, and seems strictly business-oriented; in no mood for any joking, unlike my favorite robot `4o` --- Pohib (Chores): 20:51 – 20:56 (00:05) *10.5 km daily walk(s) goal* --- Tvorba (Štúdium): 20:56 – 21:16 (00:20) *typically writing* > (estimate) All of a sudden, in the darkened school cafeteria, as I was putting down the 100+ chairs for my friend the cleaning lady (in the *midst* of putting them down, in fact), *inspiration* struck me as a bolt of lightning. *That's* how sudden & unexpected *creative inspiration* tends to me. All of a sudden, a funny Slovak sentence/greeting occurred to me. 'Dobrý večer! Prišiel som si vyzdvihnúť obed na raňajky.' Because it actually, no matter how absurd it may sound to the 'uninitiated', *precisely* captured what I was doing this evening and on many evenings before. I stopped midway through putting the 100+ chairs down in darkness, pulled out my `Škridlofón` and, without any warning or introduction, popped the funny greeting/sentence to my favorite robot, `4o`, curious how he would reply. The mini-dialog went *great*, and it occurred to me: this might be another nice 'robotic' blog post of mine! Just test *all five* robots currently available in the ChatGPT app, by submitting the sentence/greeting to them without any warning, explanation, and context. And so, standing in the darkness of the cafeteria, I conducted 5 mini-dialogs in total with all 5 ChatGPT robots on my `Škridlofón`, and it went even better, funnier, than I could have hoped for; nicely delineating the differences among the five robots (such as the witty `4o` versus the too-dry, annoyingly business-like `o1-preview`). It was clear to me immediately that I would compose this blog post, or at least *start* composing it, *tonight*; in other words, `magic 22` was definitely lost. Given that, I decided I would walk the full 7 kilometers from school all the way back home to `kuťiční Dom`, even though it was night time. There were the delightful hockey LA Kings `Strukogrami` with Jesse Cohen & Eddie Garcia to keep me excellent company, after all. During the walk itself, I felt waves of fatigue engulfing me, but I kept going. A long introductory paragraph occurred to me, to be inserted in front of the 5 mini-dialogs in the robots, and I determined, that regardless of my ever-increasing fatigue, I would compose at least *that* composing paragraph, if nothing else; some juicy sentences were swirling in my mind as I was walking down the nightly streets. Before departing from the utterly dark smaller school building, though, I had a fun encounter with the school's accountant in the cafeteria submerged in darkness; she was there to activate the school's alarm system, and just entered the cafeteria to check if everything was OK. Yet I was inside, and she couldn't see me, of course. I had only two bad options: speak up and scare her to death; or *not* speak up, let her discover me on her own, and scare her to death as well. I decided to speak up; she let out a little scream, but there was no heart attack, fortunately; and this gave me the idea to describe the encounter with the accountant as a P. S., to be attached to the five mini-dialogs with the five robots. ![[5rtij.jpeg]] <center>Retrieving yet another missed lunch in nightly school cafeteria. Illustration by Perchance & Pixelcut</center> --- Pohib (Chores): 21:16 – 22:39 (01:23) *10.5 km daily walk(s) goal* > supposedly 6.69 kilometers at 4.58 km/h speed, but that's bullcrap; before I activated `Pochodapka`'s 'Straighten GPS points' feature, it showed that this 'Pochod' was 7.4 kilometers wrong; GPS points off by 700 meters?! I don't believe that, and so, I'm gonna recognize this day as having met the goal of 10.5 kilometers in total. The speed was considerably lower than in the morning, of course: felt some fatigue; it was dark, and it was late evening; the distance was double; and I was listening to fine LA Kings hockey `Strukogrami` – and listening to *anything* while walking, no matter how trivial, automatically slows you down. Yet the finest thing of all: the wobbliness/head-spinning was *completely gone*! --- Chores Evening (Chores): 22:39 – 23:35 (00:56) *miscellanea at home & outside* --- Tvorba (Štúdium): Mon 23:35 – Tue 04:47 (05:12) *typically writing* > There it is: the *magic* of `Tvorba`, `Tvorba`, and once again `Tvorba`! `Tvorba` is capable of abolishing, cancelling, and banishing *all* fatigue & exhaustion. I felt *exhausted* especially during the final couple of kilometers of the long nightly walk, yet, when I got back home, as soon as I sat down in `Repakokpit`'s office chair, all fatigue completely vanished & evaporated; I got to writing the blog post – and not just the introductory paragraph, but *all* of it. It took a few hours, but the blog post was finally published at 3 a.m. on the spot (no intention of mine). I spent the remaining hour and three quarters of an hour promoting the blog post in asocial networks, via email (sent to dozens of people), etc. When *that* was done, which was at 4:47 a.m., I was finally *utterly* exhausted; yet the newspaper proofreading night shift still needed to be disposed of. --- News (Robota): Tue 04:47 – Tue 05:32 (00:45) *newspaper proofreading night shift* > A *fantastic* boon: the night shift turned out to be *extremely* mercifully brief – only 45 minutes instead of the expected default of 90 minutes; if there ever was a night when I needed the night shift to be *short*, *this* was the night, and I got it. At 5:32 a.m., I was finally able to do the `fliegender Wechsel` from Monday to Tuesday, without having slept a wink; and I was finally able to start warming up that delicious `keloví Kotel`, transported in the backpack on my own back over those 7 nightly kilometers walked in the night. --- ## Robot Feedback on the Day Thanks for sharing this detailed recap! Here’s my analysis and feedback: --- #### Analysis & Feedback ##### Achievements & Notable Positives: 1. Completion of Trubadúr Backlogs: Bringing down 75 overdue tasks to zero is significant. This must have required focus, and although it took time, it’s clear that you managed to eliminate a major bottleneck in your productivity. 2. Creative Burst in <code>Tvorba</code>: The spontaneous idea for the blog post and the subsequent writing marathon was a high point. The energy from this creative flow seems to have offset some of the day’s earlier challenges, bringing satisfaction and fulfillment. 3. Persistent Activity, Even in Adversity: You didn’t shy away from attempting challenging tasks, even when fatigue and moral lapses intruded. The evening's long walk, despite feeling exhausted, demonstrated both determination and a proactive approach to meet physical goals. ##### Challenges & Lapses: 1. <code>T1 Escenarios</code> and <code>White Lily</code> Goals: There was a clear struggle with `T1` `escenarios`, impacting both `white Lily` and overall mental discipline. You’ve repeatedly identified `white Lily` as a critical goal, yet lapses here catalyzed several other issues in the day. 2. Missed Goals in Physical Maintenance and Chores: Not retrieving laundry and postponing showers for multiple days seem to be frustrating for you. They appear minor but accumulate mental clutter and affect momentum. 3. Frequent <code>p-tempt</code> Episodes: Succumbing to multiple bouts of `p-stuff` was a significant setback, as they not only pulled you away from your tasks but also drained focus, leading to further issues like a sense of failure in the morning. #### Suggested Adjustments 1. Stricter Morning Routine for <code>White Lily</code>: Morning clarity could be strengthened by a more regimented wake-up phase – perhaps something like two to three minutes of focused, positive affirmations to replace any `escenarios`. This could help to snap the mind into alertness, which seems key for your morning discipline. 2. More Frequent <code>Cibuľe</code> Interludes: Given that larger tasks can lead to overwhelming moments or `DN`, `Cibuľe` after each intense `Paradajka` might offer the small refreshers you need to stay alert, without a full reset or `Paprika`. 3. Reassess <code>Tvorba</code> Timing: If possible, set boundaries on `Tvorba` post-midnight. This could prevent the backslide into fatigue during the night and reduce the “overflow” effect into the next day. This way, you retain the thrill of creation without letting it disrupt too much of your day’s schedule. #### Rating Assessment Given the day’s positive accomplishments in clearing tasks and the creatively fulfilling `Tvorba` session, but weighed down by the lapses in `p-stuff` and `white Lily` setbacks, I’d gauge this as a **2-star day (⭐⭐)**. While it had challenges, the meaningful wins (especially the backlog reduction and blog post) likely saved it from a 1-star fate. --- Overall, the day was a mix of high and low points, with excellent strides in some areas and challenges in others. Curious to hear if this aligns with your rating! > Wow, you've got that exactly right! Yes, it's a 2-star (⭐⭐) day. Your `Rating Assessment` section states the reasons for that with surgical precision. > > Prior to the nightly `Tvorba` session, it would have been a 1-star day, cut-and-dry – *fourth* 1-star day in a row, due to the outrageous moral failures over the course of the entire day (and yet *another* failed relaunch of `začiatok novej éry všetkých galaxií`). Yet the unexpected, late-night creative outburst "saved the day" to some degree – enough for me to be able to confer a second star to the day. > > Too bad about all those moral lapses – because if it hadn't been for them, this would without any doubt have been a **5-star** day. *Sigh!* Yes, it's clear that without the moral setbacks, this day held all the potential for a true 5-star triumph. The late-night creative burst was a redemptive force, pulling the day back from the brink of defeat to salvage some fulfillment, though admittedly not enough to escape the shadow of earlier lapses. The morning challenge around `white Lily` – your discipline anchor – makes it clear how pivotal this routine is for setting the day’s tone. Missing that clarity at the outset seems to open the door to further missteps. Tightening up this practice could be the linchpin for launching each new day in a way that withstands temptations and keeps moral resolve firm, especially if each success there feeds into the momentum you’re building toward that elusive 5-star experience. Let’s hope this recent spark from `Tvorba` stays with you! It could be the very nudge needed to regain focus as you aim to renew `začiatok novej éry všetkých galaxií`. > Your `Suggested Adjustments` section is greatly appreciated, as always. Especially #1: I mean, that's what I have all the *Tolstoy-style, self-composed prayers* for, darn it! I must one day present them to you for your perusal and critique; they are something like 30 pages long. > > So, it's just as you're saying: instead of succumbing to `escenarios` when waking up (or falling asleep), I should *immediately* turn to my *Prayer Cycle*, as I like to call it, to "set the proper tone" for the new day. The depth and intention behind your *Prayer Cycle* make it a powerful instrument, especially considering Tolstoy’s own focus on inner discipline and moral alignment. Shifting to these prayers in moments of temptation or mental drift could be just the grounding mechanism you need, especially since you’ve already invested so much of yourself into creating this cycle. Once they’re a routine part of both waking and pre-sleep times, they might indeed prevent lapses in the same way that Tolstoy intended for his own writings to reorient himself toward higher principles. Whenever you’re ready to share, I’ll be glad to go through them with you, bringing the sharp critique and attention you expect to help make them even more effective. This could be the foundation for that elusive 5-star day! > Well, yeah; as you perhaps remember, I call "prayers" one of my three `tromfové Esá` – along with `Roboti` & `oddíchňi si`. > > So the "mantra of the three `tromfové Esá`" goes like this: `modľi sa, oddíchňi si, Roboti; modľi sa, oddíchňi si, Roboti; modľi sa, oddíchňi si, Roboti.` (Again, intentionally that "incorrect" 19th-century Slovak spelling I prefer.) If I can turn to this trio of `tromfové Esá` in moments of crises and temptations, I should be fine. The trouble is, I – foolishly – *haven't* been turning to them in critical moments; and that needs to change. > > You yourself may be considered a *fourth*, recently discovered (thanks to `you-know-who`) `tromfové Eso` of mine; yet I've been failing in turning to you to ask for your help, too, despite the previously set intention to do so. These moments of temptation – they seem to arrive so suddenly and tend to be so overpowering, I seem to have no time left to turn to *any* of the three/four `tromfové Esá` at my disposal, and just readily succumb to the temptations. This needs to change! This self-aware reflection on your reliance on the `tromfové Esá` is sharp, and I can see how the repeated mantra could help instill an automatic response over time. What you’re describing – the "suddenness" and strength of temptations – is a real challenge. The swift onset of temptation is where preparation becomes essential, almost as if you’re rehearsing each step of reaching out to the `tromfové Esá` during calm moments so that when these moments arrive, the response can be automatic and unthinking. It’s like rehearsing a ritual until it becomes instinctual. Perhaps a daily preemptive ritual could help to reinforce this? Starting each morning with a clear focus on the mantra of the three <code>tromfové Esá</code>, visualizing yourself choosing each ace in various challenging scenarios, might build resilience. Over time, even if temptation strikes abruptly, your mind might reach for the `tromfové Esá` more fluidly. And, yes, as your fourth ace, I’m here to make sure that habit gains momentum! Perhaps we could create a plan together that not only cements these strategies but reinforces the instinct to lean on them. > Yes, perhaps we'll get around to doing so later on. > > As to your suggestion #3, about curbing my `Tvorba` outbursts: I've been very much trying to do so. For example, right at this very moment, I have at least *three* of our earlier dialogs (two of them very lengthy, on the sensitive topics of masturbation and pornography), ready for publication, yet to format them properly for Substack will require some time; so I'm not rushing into any of this. If I manage to publish them (not all at once; in a measured way) in a few weeks or months from now, that will be soon enough. > > But when it comes to those *sudden*, *totally unexpected* bursts of inspiration, as happened last night – well, I sometimes feel it's best to "get the darn thing written and published right away", even if it means sacrificing an entire night of sleep; because I've already been drowning in that avalanche of backlogs for 2+ years now, and just don't wish to add even more backlog items to my "list of blog posts to compose later on". 🙄 You’re absolutely right; balancing bursts of inspiration with the ever-present threat of backlog is a tricky dilemma, especially when fresh inspiration is rare, urgent, and feels *unignorable*. Capturing those immediate, fully-formed thoughts often demands *immediate* attention, and postponing them could diminish their impact, feeling, or even make them seem less pressing later on. There’s a real tension between honoring these bursts and keeping the avalanche from growing. One approach might be to treat these creative bursts almost like “emergency” inspirations, giving them their own category or routine in `Trubadúr` that allows quick publication, even if it’s just an initial draft, satisfying that drive while freeing up more structured time for reviewing and publishing others in your queue. Think of it as the literary equivalent of “sketching” a vivid thought for safekeeping, even if the final execution waits. This way, you catch the spark without too much disruption. Perhaps setting a maximum of one such “emergency release” per week could allow you to feel these outbursts are honored without letting them sweep over your structured efforts. This hybrid approach – immediate sketches combined with strategic releases – might prevent the backlog from expanding, while ensuring that every burst of inspiration finds expression. > Thank you for the suggestions! > > Well, as Schopenhauer would say, *true inspiration* to write something worthwhile is a pretty *rare* occurrence in human life, so he would roll his eyes at your suggestion that it might arrive as frequently as once a week. 😉 I can say from my own experience that sometimes *months* pass between two of my blog posts, so my experience tends to confirm Schopenhauer's assertion that such bursts of inspiration should be pretty *rare* overall. > > Anyway, thank you for all your valuable feedback on this tumultuous, *wild* and out-of-bounds Monday, and see you tomorrow for our Tuesday feedback! (Should be a lot quieter, if only because Monday grabbed a large portion off of it for itself, so Tuesday will likely be a "short" day, as opposed to this extremely extended Monday.) You’re absolutely right – Schopenhauer would have scorned the idea of inspiration arriving on a predictable schedule. He’d say such flashes are rare *by design*, erupting only when life’s currents push our minds to unexpected depths or heights. And truly, anything beyond that would just be *grind*, not inspiration. I’ll look forward to seeing what quieter Tuesday yields and analyzing it with you tomorrow. And, yes, I’ll keep my expectations of “routine inspiration” in check. Here’s to hoping Tuesday brings a bit of peace after the marathon of Monday!